angryasianfeminist

I look for validation sometimes
in the form of numbers on
social networking sites
the number of notes,
number of followers,
number of likes.

If we’re being honest,
I think they make me hate
myself a little less.

If we’re being honest
I would tell you that
I feel like too much
all the time.

I need reminders
that it’s okay
to be bursting
at the seams,
that people still
like me even
when I have trouble
liking myself.

The stretchmarks
on my skin are
reminding
me that I’m
too much for my own
skin to handle.

I feel like
explosions trapped in
a body sometimes.

I don’t know how to
be any less than I am.

This is for anyone
that feels like too much
of anything.

I hope you never
let anyone water you down.

Write this down:
I validate my own existence.

Write it anywhere you’ll see it often.
Remind yourself until you start
to believe it.

For what it’s worth,
if you think you’re a handful,
most people have got two.

If they don’t,
people have ears to listen,
arms to hold you,
mouths to comfort you.

Let them breathe you in.

  • YOU'RE GOING TO MEET SO MANY FANTASTIC AND AMAZING AND FASCINATING PEOPLE AND THERE WILL BE MESMERIZING SUNSETS AND THINGS YOU WANNA TAKE PICTURES OF AND BOOKS TO WRITE AND YOU JUST HAVE TO HOLD ON FOR ALL THESE THINGS THE WORLD HOLDS
queenivona
1. Kiss that cute boy at the party, but push him away as soon as he puts his hand up your skirt
2. Smoke a cigarette for the first time, and make it your last
3. Don’t straighten your hair for a week, see how many compliments you get
4. Blast your favourite song even when your mum has told you off for playing it too loudly. Enjoy those 3 minutes of pure happiness before she pulls the plug out.
5. Say yes to going out, you’ll have something to tell your grandchildren about
6. Paint a sun on a rainy day, then stick it to the window
7. Eat the cupcake, you have better things to worry about than those 300 calories
8. Do yoga and meditate as often as possible
9. Stand up for yourself. Someone called you a slut? Someone said you are ugly? Someone said your art work was boring and dull? That is your cue to fucking stand up for yourself and make them speechless
10. Don’t respond to a group of males whistling at you. You’re a human being, not a fucking dog
11. Leave your headphones at home, see how much you are missing out on because you’re always lost in your own thoughts
12. Carry hand sanitizer and bandaids in your purse
13. Wear sexy underwear, loads of leather, a fur coat, heels and purple lipstick. Do it for yourself, not for the hot guy next door.
14. If you’re having a bad day, cry, scream, punch a pillow, throw stuff around. Then you pick up the mess, including yourself and get back up.
15. Smile, be polite and get on peoples good sides for starters
16. Stop waiting for your crush, stop dressing up for the bar man that serves you a free drink or staying extra hours at work for your boss. Stop impressing these dickheads and start impressing yourself.
17. Laugh until you cry, and when the girl sitting next to you in class tells you to shut up, laugh even louder.
18. Do whatever feels right in the moment, laugh, cringe and regret it later. Repeat.
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My brother killed himself
on the twenty-eighth Thursday of last year
and I missed four days of work
and my mom wanted to know ‘Why’.
My brother
he was always a fan of beauty
but what he did
was not beautiful at all.

And last week I got the news
that one of my good friends from high school
had overdosed
(again)
except this time
she’d gone too far
and now she was gone.
And I had a hard time falling asleep at night
and her mother
hugged me tight
and thanked me for coming to the service
but I did not
want to be there at all.
This is not
beautiful.

The girl down the street
would’ve turned 21 last year
and I can scarcely imagine
the wild times she would’ve
(should’ve)
had.
But she is buried six feet deep
after falling nearly 300
and she did not leave a note.
This is not
beautiful.

My freshman year of college
and my roommate was beautiful
and how I wanted to be just like her.
But she wore herself down
till she was
almost invisible
and if you blinked
you had to go and find her all over again.
So now her parents are no longer supporting her college tuition
but are paying her hospital bills
watching their daughter crumble.
This is not
beautiful.

So y’all can take your narcissistic
romanticizing
and glamorizing
of self harm and eating disorders and committing suicide
and shove them as far up your ass
as you possibly can.
Starvation is not beautiful.
Killing yourself is not beautiful.
Sadness
is not beautiful.
This note I am writing
is not beautiful.

But you
you are beautiful
and it’s about damn time you start believing it.

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